these are studious times.

it is the week of finals.

we are so close, yet so far away it seems from being finished with these classes and jumping on a plane to grab some Tim Hortons.

I had my first final this morning and I think it went alright. It was Old Testament, and I destroyed the test up to the point that it started asking about minor prophets. Those guys all get mashed together in my head and there is little hope of seperating the information. However, I am confident my few mishaps in that section will not affect my overall grade in the course. I'm happy and proud to announce an "A" in story of the old testament. (this is the part where the crowd goes wild)

my next exam today is Calc III, in which I need to get a 60 or better to keep an A in the class. I think this will be doable.

tomorrow will be the killer with physics II and mechanics. both hard courses and they will be quite lengthy. so after tomorrow I will be home free.

i have looked into the idea of possibily spending a semester in India with Nic and the Mcmillans, doing some teaching and serving over there. As much as this appeals to me right now, I think I will come back to school and finish the year at least. After that, I will be in much better position to maybe spend the summer over there or do something else like that for the summer.

I feel torn between the radical call of Jesus (the just get up and go, and He will the do rest) and the call for me to just witness where I am. Maybe I have been disallusioned for the last little while spiritually, convinced that I just need to get away from school/security/comfortable to feel like I am serving God more wholeheartedly. I think instead of me moving physically, I need to just move spiritually, and really be alert to the doors the God can open down here in the bible belt. Or maybe not...I'm not sure at this moment.

I look at my parents. They are very selfless with their money and time. They are great servants of God. However, we obviously still attain and very comfortable lifestyle in sub-urban Calgary, with day jobs and very busy schedules. Does Jesus require more than this? Is this the true meaning of entering the kingdom of God? How much more can it go beyond this? Where does that idea fit in with me and where I am/where I want to be/where I should be?

questions, questions and more questions are coming from this.

pray for me please.

1 down and 4 to go. on wednesday night we are going out for India food to celebrate the end of exams. see you guys at home soon.

all those in regina - Jordan and I will be driving down on the 29th or so, stay for New Years and then leave on the 3rd or something. be there!