american history = boring

with 4 down and 1 left to go, I find it hard to get motivated to study for US Turning Points.

The exams today went quite well. I got an A on the physics and the mechanics was long and tough, but I think I should be ok. It works out that you get about 8 min a problem, and that is just not enough for solving complex systems of loads and reactions on a truss. (can someone say nerd?....nerd.....thanks Tyler.)

tonight I will study for about...hmmm....30 min and the rest of the time will be spent vegging around, trying to recover from today's exams.

the end is in sight. and home is only 3 days away.

these are studious times.

it is the week of finals.

we are so close, yet so far away it seems from being finished with these classes and jumping on a plane to grab some Tim Hortons.

I had my first final this morning and I think it went alright. It was Old Testament, and I destroyed the test up to the point that it started asking about minor prophets. Those guys all get mashed together in my head and there is little hope of seperating the information. However, I am confident my few mishaps in that section will not affect my overall grade in the course. I'm happy and proud to announce an "A" in story of the old testament. (this is the part where the crowd goes wild)

my next exam today is Calc III, in which I need to get a 60 or better to keep an A in the class. I think this will be doable.

tomorrow will be the killer with physics II and mechanics. both hard courses and they will be quite lengthy. so after tomorrow I will be home free.

i have looked into the idea of possibily spending a semester in India with Nic and the Mcmillans, doing some teaching and serving over there. As much as this appeals to me right now, I think I will come back to school and finish the year at least. After that, I will be in much better position to maybe spend the summer over there or do something else like that for the summer.

I feel torn between the radical call of Jesus (the just get up and go, and He will the do rest) and the call for me to just witness where I am. Maybe I have been disallusioned for the last little while spiritually, convinced that I just need to get away from school/security/comfortable to feel like I am serving God more wholeheartedly. I think instead of me moving physically, I need to just move spiritually, and really be alert to the doors the God can open down here in the bible belt. Or maybe not...I'm not sure at this moment.

I look at my parents. They are very selfless with their money and time. They are great servants of God. However, we obviously still attain and very comfortable lifestyle in sub-urban Calgary, with day jobs and very busy schedules. Does Jesus require more than this? Is this the true meaning of entering the kingdom of God? How much more can it go beyond this? Where does that idea fit in with me and where I am/where I want to be/where I should be?

questions, questions and more questions are coming from this.

pray for me please.

1 down and 4 to go. on wednesday night we are going out for India food to celebrate the end of exams. see you guys at home soon.

all those in regina - Jordan and I will be driving down on the 29th or so, stay for New Years and then leave on the 3rd or something. be there!

tyler the heathen

With everyone in the bible belt off to Wednesday night church, I, the heathen, have decided it would be an opportune time to blog.

Wednesday night church just seems weird for Clair and I. The reason it bugs me is because I watch these "Christians," like robots, go to church three times a week and don't seem to even be questioning/searching/seeking for what it means to truly walk with Jesus in our world.

Maybe the are seeking but are to afraid or busy to want to deal with it.

I am at a weird stage.

I have moments where I just think, think and think some more about all this Jesus stuff. Then I am woken from my daze and I go on back to all the things that keep me busy.

I am so spiritually frustrated and anxious. I don't know what to do in regards to my call in the kingdom and kingdom work.

Am I getting to comfortable in this "go to classes, do homework, play intramurals, study for tests, do some service projects" bubble? Surely there must be more in store?

Should I wait it out until I have my degree? or leave school and pursue kingdom work whereever God may lead me?

I am leaning towards the latter these days. After hearing from Nic that he is probably going to India, I am SO jealous. I just want to get away like that and experience something else but school.

This is a very fragmented blog. Sorry.

I need to get some coffee with Close. 9 days till home.

I'm just going to do some calc. darn.

mochas, prison break and basketball

today was another snow day in Oklahoma. needless to stay I didn't spend it studying for upcoming exams and or anything useful like that.

I made some mochas (or is it mochi?), watched some prison break (season one is addicting and intense) and finally played some bball with the boys.

tonight Clair and I are going for someone's birthday party. I don't know whos it is, but Clair is the boss and so I am going to the party.

miss you guys up in the mother land and wish I could be there for the western vs. cofc Kings hockey game. score a goal for me Nic.

until next time. T.